Attraction?

I’m finally taking a break from work, though I’ve been having much more fun these days as I am writing code again. It’s more exciting to me than system administration, even though it can be frustrating (especially when a PostgreSQL bug bites you). Actually, this isn’t so much a break as waiting for a new RPM to build. I spend a lot of time at work now, and something currently missing from my routine is working out. Haven’t been to the gym in months. I keep thinking about it, and realize that part of the reason is that I no longer believe in attraction. I used to think that by working out and being fit, someone might find me a little more attractive, and perhaps that would spur them to approach me. I never wanted to be really physically attractive, but I felt being marginally handsome was part of how relationships happened. However, after lots of observation, I have come to believe that finding someone has nothing to do with anything. It is completely random, or divine. It has nothing to do with attraction, fitness, beauty, or how much your life is “in order”. Its just a matter of biding your time and waiting for your number to come up. “Now serving: 41”. Aw, crap. I think my number is written in scientific notation…